The trouble with sleep…Or lack thereof

The other day I mentioned how once I get up I can’t go back to sleep. So you will understand if I start to make no sense whatsoever. I got up at 1:30am. Trying to get back to sleep after that was fun. Eventually I dozed off again only to hear my husband’s alarm blaring in what seemed like minutes. 4:30am. I have nothing against morning, but anytime before 7am is cruel and unusual punishment in my books!

And if being awake at that hour wasn’t bad enough, I got up to make my husband’s lunch yet again. Without being asked. I’m such a good wife, even if I do say so myself. (Actually, my husband says it too. It’s good to know he appreciates me sacrificing my precious sleep!) I may be verging on dead, but I’m a great wife!

The trouble with being awake at this hour is that there is nothing to do. The house is clean and I have a funny feeling the neighbours wouldn’t appreciate me vacuuming anyway. Washing is also a bit loud. I could do a few dishes but I’m not feeling that energetic. If I eat I’ll get fat. If I drink some of that fizzy drink in the fridge I’ll have to get up again to use the bathroom. Plus I’ll end up with bubbles up my nose. If I crochet I’ll probably put stitches where there should not be stitches. Or not put stitches where they should be. Although when it gets a littler lighter I might just run the risk.

I have this strange urge to go do my shopping now and get it over with. I’m kinda new to this whole ‘wife’ thing but I’m pretty sure it’s not normal to want to go shopping in the dark and cold, when there is absolutely no one at the shops. It just sounds so peaceful! But I know that I can’t. So the only shopping I could do is buy things online. Which I may or may not have just done. Again. (This time with MY card, instead of my husband’s!) I should stop waking up at ridiculous hours otherwise we may go broke!

In order to prevent this happening I have decided my best course of action is to go back to sleep. Please nobody wake me between now and say 10am. Because if I wake up again I may just buy more things.

Sleepless Ramblings

I can’t sleep. At 3:30am this is quite possibly evidence that I am not normal. (My friends will say they knew that anyway!) Most people are off somewhere in dreamland at this hour. But for some reason sleep is eluding me.

Perhaps I’m still getting used to another body in the bed. I’ve only been married for 3 months, and after spending nearly 24 years sleeping on my own I guess it will take some getting used to. (The other body in the bed is currently deep-breathing, hogging the blankets and MY pillow, and just whacked me in the face. This could also be contributing to the sleeplessness problem!)

There is also the fact that I am still sick and my ears are uncomfortably blocked up. Or maybe it’s just excitement for starting prac next week. Or stress from knowing I somehow have to cope with 5 full weeks of prac and class while managing to keep up with the washing, cooking, and cleaning. Perhaps I am worrying about the assignment that I am struggling to find information for. Or maybe I’m planning dinner for tomorrow night. (Strange time to be thinking about that I know. But you have to be prepared!)

But somehow, even in the middle of the hazy lack-of-sleep fog that surrounds my brain, I am thankful. Thankful that I am alive to feel sleepy, stressed, worried. Thankful that we have clothes to create washing, a house to clean. Thankful for a warm bed to sleep in. (Now if only I could sleep!) Thankful that I have ears to hear, even though they are annoying me at the moment. Thankful that we have food to eat for dinner tomorrow, even if I don’t know exactly what we will have yet! And then there is my husband. I am so thankful for his love and support, even if he sometimes elbows me in the back in the middle of the night. I am also thankful for a God to talk to in the middle of the night when nobody else is around to listen.

‘In everything give thanks.’ (1 Thessalonians 5:18)

What can you be thankful for today? (Or maybe in the morning when you normal people wake up!)