I can’t sleep. At 3:30am this is quite possibly evidence that I am not normal. (My friends will say they knew that anyway!) Most people are off somewhere in dreamland at this hour. But for some reason sleep is eluding me.
Perhaps I’m still getting used to another body in the bed. I’ve only been married for 3 months, and after spending nearly 24 years sleeping on my own I guess it will take some getting used to. (The other body in the bed is currently deep-breathing, hogging the blankets and MY pillow, and just whacked me in the face. This could also be contributing to the sleeplessness problem!)
There is also the fact that I am still sick and my ears are uncomfortably blocked up. Or maybe it’s just excitement for starting prac next week. Or stress from knowing I somehow have to cope with 5 full weeks of prac and class while managing to keep up with the washing, cooking, and cleaning. Perhaps I am worrying about the assignment that I am struggling to find information for. Or maybe I’m planning dinner for tomorrow night. (Strange time to be thinking about that I know. But you have to be prepared!)
But somehow, even in the middle of the hazy lack-of-sleep fog that surrounds my brain, I am thankful. Thankful that I am alive to feel sleepy, stressed, worried. Thankful that we have clothes to create washing, a house to clean. Thankful for a warm bed to sleep in. (Now if only I could sleep!) Thankful that I have ears to hear, even though they are annoying me at the moment. Thankful that we have food to eat for dinner tomorrow, even if I don’t know exactly what we will have yet! And then there is my husband. I am so thankful for his love and support, even if he sometimes elbows me in the back in the middle of the night. I am also thankful for a God to talk to in the middle of the night when nobody else is around to listen.
‘In everything give thanks.’ (1 Thessalonians 5:18)
What can you be thankful for today? (Or maybe in the morning when you normal people wake up!)